Excerpts of Decolonization
In our culture, the narcissists are the racists, sexist, delusional entitled folks and the codependent, people pleasers are the perfectionists, good workers, patriots. Together they are the “americans” who perpetuate the propaganda that this country is the moral authority of righteousness because their fragile identity is dependent upon this lie. Naturally, they are going to live and die by this lie. We can’t change their mind. All we can do is focus on ourselves and avoid them as much as possible remembering to never give them the benefit of the doubt. We must remember, that they live and die by the lie, and they will kill you if you threaten their identity. Like any bully, you ignore them until you must deal with them. Those times are relative to your experience. But I recommend not giving them too much of your energy or attention because, like any narcissist, they provoke you to drain your energy. They are disconnected from the soul of humanity so it’s in their nature to hurt others to feel better. A dark trauma response they need to heal. But until they heal, we must limit our interactions with them.
Today, I am tired of those committed to colonial delusions. I don’t want to acknowledge them anymore. I want them to be obsolete.
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I have a question… Something I have been exploring and testing within my day-to-day life. The oppressor is always going to attempt to oppress. I can’t change that. But what if I stop believing in their story of oppression? Are they oppressing me if I still find ways to live my life with joy and liberation? To my ancestors, I’m not oppressed to the degree in which they were. And didn’t things change because people stopped participating in their own oppression? They sat where they wanted and went where they pleased regardless of the rules in place and eventually the rules changed. It was the vision of Freedom from those without it, that brought us here today. No, it’s not fully realized, but we must continue the vision until then.
How?
What if I continue to live my life with all the love and happiness I have inside me despite the possibility of police corruption and systematic racism? I can’t stop the microaggressions or the macroaggressions. I can only control what is in my mind and where I put my energy. Do I spend my time being angry and searching for confirmation of people being racist? Or do I spend my time finding ways to live a life of love and happiness?
Today, I am tired of those committed to colonial delusions. I don’t want to acknowledge them anymore. I want them to be obsolete. If I follow the rule of as within, so without, I can decide to make them obsolete and refuse to accept their energy. I don’t acknowledge people I don’t care for, and those people usually leave me alone. Can’t I do the same with bigots? It’s not my job to tell other people they are a$$holes. But should those a$$holes do something to cause me harm, then I will take necessary action. How that action looks depends on many factors that I can’t speak on until I experience them. I have limited time and energy, I don’t want to spend it focusing on all the ways racists make this world a crappy place when I could be taking trips and loving on my friends and family. I have people to love and people who love me back…haters are gonna hate no matter what. I can’t waste my time trying to convince them I matter. I know I matter. Others know I matter. Screw the ones who believe otherwise. We can build a better world without them.
